How Motherhood has “CHANGED” Me……

I like writing,its one of the most beautiful way to express oneself but I was missing in action from my blog for a brief period coz my duty as a mother who is raising a Mini tornado needs her attention 24*7,my baby is achieving new milestones with every passing day. Yesterday he was running behind butterflies in the park and today he wanted to answer the door….oh no, see I started flattering about my kid again.This is how motherhood has changed me,even at a minuscule chance I start praising all my baby’s up’s & down’s I would say Motherhood has not changed me, it has transformed me in an altogether different person that I once used to be. Motherhood has taken over an almost perfectionist personality of mine.

# I used to hate to see my wardrobe disarranged, it used to be well stacked just like data in a data structure. But since Motherhood happened,  I need to dive in the sea of clothes to find a t shirt that will go with my pyjama’s but my baby’s side is neatly arranged. There is no chance that you will disturb the full pants while pulling out the footsie’s.

# I was never interested in that part of the house from where we get food, yes I am talking about Kitchen. And I don’t even carry great culinary skills. But cooking new,colorful and healthy food items for my son is my favourite hobby these days, which my little man royally refuses to eat. But frankly speaking I don’t ever feel bad that he refuses to eat the stuff I made because next day I am all prepped to bring on the new item and pass it on to husband dearest when baby dearest does not approve of it. With my absolutely accommodating cooking skills,its becomes a win-win situation for me either as a Mother or as a wife

# From being a very passionate career-oriented girl to now a Stay-At-Home-Mother, this has been the biggest transformation ever happened within me. It sometimes does breaks my heart to see the World running ahead but hello I am a Mother and no job in the World beats that designation.

# Once you are a Mother, there is no way to feel bedraggled or scummy or dirty. You have poop smeared hands number of times in a day. Your those once, well manicured hands are now holding your baby’s puke so that it does not spoil his clothes. My clothes,who cares as far as my kid’s clothes are stain & stink free

#I am a self proclaimed Mom research analyst. I am always ready with examples to co-relate science with baby related things, be it cloth diapering or baby wearing or weaning.

#Motherhood has enhanced my senses too specifically nose & ears. I can smell poop from rooms across and his cries from floors apart

# There is zero scope to be selfish in this world of motherhood.You get the superpower of holding your pee for hours after being a mother as every second is important. Everything happens in a blink of an eye whether it is a milestone or a mishap and being a mommy you cannot afford to miss any of it.

#Motherhood has also made me very brave. Brave enough to nurture a tiny being into a good human. Taking brave decisions to be by my son’s side 24*7.

I don’t want to miss all those first’s first that my son is going to do in his life. I want to be with him when his eyes look for the safest place to rely on. I want to reach to him,console when he falls and push him to attempt that step again. I want to be close to him when his arms are crying for his “Mu-umma’s” hug. I want to be present for him for the time when I AM THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN HIS LIFE. I love spending time in kitchen cooking for him. I love folding my little man’s laundry. Oh, and I am the spookiest one when he does not poo or pee on time. Running behind him is my favourite-st thing right now. I don’t care if I have not combed for a week or taking baths in evening. Watching movies or catching some drama’s on drama fever seems like a blurred vision. I am as fresh as a daisy even if my son has kept me up till mid-night, slapped and kicked to wake me up early in the morning.

I had mentioned in my earlier post that another name for Motherhood is madness(you can read it here) and I have been living in this madness since fifteen months and have enjoyed every span of second spent in this magical world. Motherhood is a feeling which cannot be described in few words but can be felt within.

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This post is a part of the blog train- 2 started by Pooja Kawatra of Mums & Babies where she has brought together mothers from across the globe. Do read her blog post on How Motherhood has changed me – http://www.themumsandbabies.com/2017/09/how-motherhood-has-changed-me/ and more on the blog train here.

I want to thank Hajra Afreen for introducing me, read how Motherhood changed her,here

Hop over to the lovely Gayathri’s page who is  a software engineer turned FTM to two adorable girls! Loves staying connected to nature! Believes in natural parenting, montessorri and just following the children.Believe in taking one stride a time and as the life leads to know about her journey, here

 

 

 

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M for Motherhood..M for Madness

There are so many things that come along with Motherhood.Love,Patience, Strength,Caring,creativity,humor,generosity,affection,unselfishness,supportive,empathy,honesty,thoughtfulness,flexibility,commitment. These and some more adjectives very well Motherhood but no body added the most important word that defines Motherhood the best according to me “Madness”. See its easy, Motherhood can be described in so many different ways,words,feelings but when all the above mentioned things are put into one woman she becomes Mad. Yes, this is the phase of life through which I am going right now.

Since the day I got married, I was counseled to become a Mother. Though I did not fall prey to all such ears. I took my own luxury time to come to decision to become a Mother,after 3 years. The madness in bits started the time I conceived. I had to abandon my Job because I was not fit enough to manage pregnancy & job both at the same time, had to choose one. Whenever I used to go for an ultrasound test, a new problem was adding to my craziness.It must have hardly happened I went for an ultrasound and did not return home with a weepy face. Pregnancy induced thyroid, so I was on a strict diet along with medication. Then there was heartburn, cramps and so many problems. Whole pregnancy I was sleeping on left side of my body as the Gynecologist suggested it helps in good blood circulation towards the baby. I was dying to sleep on all sides but no just to keep my unborn safe, I slept left whole 9 months. My baby refused to come on the desired date,He arrived 3 days late than the expected time via a C-section delivery. Those 3 days seemed like 3 years to me as I was so desperate to get out of this whole pregnancy fiasco. Finally, I thought thats the end of my suffering. But I was so so wrong. My suffering as a Mother started after baby’s arrival. After baby I feel pregnancy was easier.

My baby who is 10 months old have been having problem with sleep since the day he arrived. I was told,babies start sleeping properly after 40 days. Till 40th day, every day & night I prayed for 40th day to arrive but on 41st day it was the same scene. Then they told its 3 months, babies take 3 months to come to a proper sleep schedule. 3 months came & went I was still awake at 3 o’clock at night singing or playing or feeding my owl. Then they said its 6 months, there was still no improvement at my end. Since then I have stopped thinking of peaceful sleep at night. Its been 10 months now..still no signs of improvement.

I am obsessed with baby poop.Poop color,poop time, poop consistency. I sound like a poop inspector these days. Phew, starting on solids has been a task.My baby has been trained by the Interpol to not to open his mouth come whatever may. He will just not open his mouth for anything that even closely smells or resembles food. Then forcefully pushing things into his mouth is my part of job and his expertise lies in throwing everything on my clothes and hands. Hurray, he wins most of the times.Feeling gross about something is a forgotten dream these days. Because I have been on a poop explosion & puke explosion cleaning spree since 10 months.

My hair are always tied in a high pony or bun. Because I do not remember when the comb and my hair met last time. These are just few things and I know many are on my way to this Madness journey of being a Mother.

I am a Mother who is standing on the edge of loosing her sanity.

But I am also a Mother who is loving this madness. I love to see that giggly face when I blow bubbles on his stomach. I love to blow hundreds & thousands of kisses everyday just because I love that part of mine more than anything else in the World. I love to carefully cut little nails from those chubby hands because I am scared of cutting him in the process. Giving baths to my water baby and making him play in water just because he loves so. I am fan of those little happy dances by the tiny feet done everyday. I don’t mind being a night watchman for my baby because I do not want him to be alone when he plays at that time. When I look at my baby’s face, I talk to myself “Why I took so much time to bring you in this World, what I could have done without you?” Such is my situation after becoming a Mother. I am happy & sad for same things that are happening in my life.

Are you in same phase of life right now? Please do let me know in the comments.