M for Motherhood..M for Madness

There are so many things that come along with Motherhood.Love,Patience, Strength,Caring,creativity,humor,generosity,affection,unselfishness,supportive,empathy,honesty,thoughtfulness,flexibility,commitment. These and some more adjectives very well Motherhood but no body added the most important word that defines Motherhood the best according to me “Madness”. See its easy, Motherhood can be described in so many different ways,words,feelings but when all the above mentioned things are put into one woman she becomes Mad. Yes, this is the phase of life through which I am going right now.

Since the day I got married, I was counseled to become a Mother. Though I did not fall prey to all such ears. I took my own luxury time to come to decision to become a Mother,after 3 years. The madness in bits started the time I conceived. I had to abandon my Job because I was not fit enough to manage pregnancy & job both at the same time, had to choose one. Whenever I used to go for an ultrasound test, a new problem was adding to my craziness.It must have hardly happened I went for an ultrasound and did not return home with a weepy face. Pregnancy induced thyroid, so I was on a strict diet along with medication. Then there was heartburn, cramps and so many problems. Whole pregnancy I was sleeping on left side of my body as the Gynecologist suggested it helps in good blood circulation towards the baby. I was dying to sleep on all sides but no just to keep my unborn safe, I slept left whole 9 months. My baby refused to come on the desired date,He arrived 3 days late than the expected time via a C-section delivery. Those 3 days seemed like 3 years to me as I was so desperate to get out of this whole pregnancy fiasco. Finally, I thought thats the end of my suffering. But I was so so wrong. My suffering as a Mother started after baby’s arrival. After baby I feel pregnancy was easier.

My baby who is 10 months old have been having problem with sleep since the day he arrived. I was told,babies start sleeping properly after 40 days. Till 40th day, every day & night I prayed for 40th day to arrive but on 41st day it was the same scene. Then they told its 3 months, babies take 3 months to come to a proper sleep schedule. 3 months came & went I was still awake at 3 o’clock at night singing or playing or feeding my owl. Then they said its 6 months, there was still no improvement at my end. Since then I have stopped thinking of peaceful sleep at night. Its been 10 months now..still no signs of improvement.

I am obsessed with baby poop.Poop color,poop time, poop consistency. I sound like a poop inspector these days. Phew, starting on solids has been a task.My baby has been trained by the Interpol to not to open his mouth come whatever may. He will just not open his mouth for anything that even closely smells or resembles food. Then forcefully pushing things into his mouth is my part of job and his expertise lies in throwing everything on my clothes and hands. Hurray, he wins most of the times.Feeling gross about something is a forgotten dream these days. Because I have been on a poop explosion & puke explosion cleaning spree since 10 months.

My hair are always tied in a high pony or bun. Because I do not remember when the comb and my hair met last time. These are just few things and I know many are on my way to this Madness journey of being a Mother.

I am a Mother who is standing on the edge of loosing her sanity.

But I am also a Mother who is loving this madness. I love to see that giggly face when I blow bubbles on his stomach. I love to blow hundreds & thousands of kisses everyday just because I love that part of mine more than anything else in the World. I love to carefully cut little nails from those chubby hands because I am scared of cutting him in the process. Giving baths to my water baby and making him play in water just because he loves so. I am fan of those little happy dances by the tiny feet done everyday. I don’t mind being a night watchman for my baby because I do not want him to be alone when he plays at that time. When I look at my baby’s face, I talk to myself “Why I took so much time to bring you in this World, what I could have done without you?” Such is my situation after becoming a Mother. I am happy & sad for same things that are happening in my life.

Are you in same phase of life right now? Please do let me know in the comments.


Left Hand Bias…Are you?

After becoming a Mother, the first and most important thing a new Mother craves for is to hold her baby. The moment the tiny squish is placed in Mother’s hand all she does is carrying her baby and irresistibly she puts her baby on her left shoulder to caress…happened in my case and happens mostly with 70-85 percent of new Mums across the Globe.If you see pictures of Mothers, celebrity Mums or Normal one’s like us(Now please read the complete article first and then go back to check the pictures :))one common thing is worth noticing in them is left side carrying either on the shoulders or on hips.

Well everyone should know the reason WHY women carry their babies to their left?

The phenomenon of carrying your baby on the left side is known as Left Hand Bias.Main reason for this still remains unknown but there are some theories that makes us relate to this left hand bias.When a Mother carries her baby on the left side, the right side of her brain lights up and with such hibernation in right side of her brains makes her to bond with her baby well. All we all know that right side of our brain controls the left side & vice-a-versa, which is known as Lateralisation in scientific terms. Not only Mothers but the same behavior is also observed in young girls, that they start carrying their dolls or even babies on their left side.Studies have also discovered that when a Mother carries her baby on left side,she is easily able to understand and interpret her baby’s needs & emotional cues.

Not only humans but some Mammals also exhibit same behavior(Strange Na!!!).

Now the question arises what about father’s carrying their baby?

Well, Father’s or Men do not feel any such intuition of carrying babies on the left side. Carrying baby on any side feels same for them. And Men complain that its a problem with Women Brain.

Vipassana(Meditation) in Pregnancy

Last June,same day I did something remarkable that I will remember for the rest of my life.I attended a 10 days long Vipassana(Meditation) course at Dhammagiri,an International Meditation Center which is in Igatpuri, a small hill station near Nashik in Central Railway.The location is easily accessible by road, just 2 hour drive from Mumbai.


Vipassana..errr What??

What is Vipassana(Little info what actually the thing is)?

Vipassana in easy words means to see things as they are. It is also one of India’s most ancient techniques of Meditation. It was rediscovered by Gautama Buddha more than 2500 years ago and was taught by him as a universal remedy for universal ills. Vipassana is a technique in which you train your mind & thoughts to be in your control. Buddha got enlightenment by meditating for a prolong time. What we are taught here as starters is to keep on observing our body. In the 10 day course you meditate 10-14 hours a day,8-10 hours for pregnant females(Yay!! for time relaxation).Mainly it starts from observing your breath and then the whole body. It seems very easy when I write but being a first time Vipassi(Meditator),it was very difficult to concentrate cause our mind is programmed to wander in unwanted thoughts when require them to be quite the most.One has to make Dhammagiri there home for the 10days(12 actually including the travel).First day which is usually used up for checking in, room allocation and last day is kept for Mangal Maitri, yes we can start speaking or talking(whatever you want to use) on this day and make friends of whose you were only staring faces for 10days.

My Experience(What I actually did):

My whole family is into Meditation from a very long time except me. I being the most bothersome kid never obeyed to parents and hence used to skip participating in such mind bothering practices. Once revoltingly Mom asked when are you going to do it and I wittingly answered “I will do it when I will be pregnant”. And finally the day arrived where there was no escape route and had to give up not obeying Mom and to go to attend the course.

 I was not confident of completing the course as it demanded complete aloof from the outside World. No cell phones, no television, No news paper and most important observing the course in complete silence not even hush-hushing with your roomie. 

It was a challenge in itself from me to myself to complete the full course. After reaching there,at the end of first day I gave a thought to myself, I had 10 whole days just for me.No distractions. To think of life,past..present..future and to the life I was making inside me.I had known(actually overheard) that doing Vipassana during pregnancy was something special and that it improved the connection between Mother & Child.Believe me, At the end of 10days,I actually started to feel my baby more and where exactly he was positioned in my tummy.Also the technique of controlling mind & body helped me to overcome my fear of giving birth of which I was petrified of since beginning.

Attention & Care:

The management at  pays special attention to Pregnant females.Ladies till 29th week of pregnancy can attend the course. Rooms with best location,closer to meditation hall & lunch halls are kept specially for pregnant and old Vipassi. Also a physician is available at the center 24*7 in case of any emergency. The food is served only one time in day i.e lunch,a simple vegetarian diet apart from breakfast which is served twice.But again pregnant females are provided with both lunch & dinner along with two times breakfast.


So I would request you all at least once in your lifetime,should attend this course and observe the difference in yourself.The course is attended and can be attended by each and everyone among-st us. The old and young,men,women,handi-capped(special care and attention for such Vipassi’s), pregnant females.Men & Women have separate hostels and dining halls. The places are so discrete, that Men and women cannot see each other.

It’s a technique of doing meditation that is taught here, it has nothing to do with a Person’s ethnic orientation. Also meditation is not practiced by Buddhists only,each and everyone who wants to start Meditation or to learn Meditation are welcomed with open arms at Dhammagiri.

Please do contact in case of any questions or queries.